Granny

So as you all know now my grandmother is in the hospital. I just wanted to update you all on her progress. Yesterday was a really hard day for her and our family. As they were taking her off the ventilator she stopped breathing and had a heart attack and passed. They resuscitated her and got her stable. My sister, Jayden, and I went up to the hospital at around 3 and saw her, she was very heavily sedated so she didn't see us. She was doing well and today she is doing very good. Her lungs are still not good, but tonight when Megan and I went to see her she seemed like she was in very good spirts, and even smiled when she saw us. The doctor also came and told her what had happened and what her options were. She will have to live with a trachea for the rest of her life if that is her decision. Which I hope that is what her decision is. If not then she will decided to be at peace with God. Which I will also understand. I just pray and hope for the best. I am sure everything will work out for the better though, just have to keep my hopes up!

On another fine note .... I had Christmas yesterday with my Nana, dad, Megan, and Jayden, and it was wonderful ... as my dad likes to say Jayden got a Winnie the Pooh thingy, that he enjoys alot, and also got Pettie! Who he will love! I also had a very wonderful time, and was very glad that I got to see my dad and Nana. I don't see them that often and I sure hope that that changes!

So tomorrow is New Year's Eve, and I can't believe it. What a year this has been. This year has definitely had it's ups and downs.... but for the most part all of them are ups. Looking back her are just a few of the perks:
1. February 26, 2008 ... My lovely son was born at 9:05pm weighing a healthy 6lbs 11oz
2. September 23, 2008 .... I turned 21!
3. October 2008 ... I started college at ATI to become a Medical Assistant

Those would be my top 3! I am so happy about those things and can't wait to look forward to this upcoming year!!! I know that it will be a great one! I have so much to look forward too ... Brandon is graduating boot camp on Jan. 24 ... from the Air Force! Go CUZ! Jayden will be 1 in February. Oh and don't forget we are all going to DTV in February too! LOL!!!! I graduate in September!!! Oh and that crazy sister of mine will be 21! OMG!!! :)

Anyways enough with my ramblings ... good night to all!! Have a safe and Happy New Year!

Merry Christmas

Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas!

So today was Jayden's first Christmas ... he got so much stuff ... it was crazy. I got some pretty neat stuff too ... but it was all about him this year!!! I am so glad that he enjoyed it ... I know he will sleep well tonight.

I just wish that my granny would have been there to see him. For you that don't know my grandmother is in the hospital. Harris downtown in ICU. She has been in there for almost a week now. She feel going to the bathroom in her apartment and has stitches from her head to her chin, she broke her fibula, the biggest bone in the leg, she has pneumonia, and also has a blood infection, she is also on a ventilator which is helping her breath, so she can't talk to us. I feel so bad for her. Tonight was actually the first night that I have been up there to see her because I have been fighting off a cold myself. So I didn't know really how bad her injuries were, but when I saw her tonight it was awful. I couldn't help the tears running down my face, she looked so miserable. I also felt bad because I couldn't bring Jayden back there and she wanted to see him so bad. Hopefully she will be OK, I pray for her every night.

So something up lifting for you guys, my A/P test I took Tuesday at school I made a 98 .... which means I only missed 2. Plus we also got 25 points extra for our essay that we wrote on the difference between diabetic coma and insulin shock. Which believe me I know ... my grandmother is diabetic. So that means that I would get a 123 if I got those extra 25 points. Which would be way cool. I don't get to find out though until the 5th when we go back ... so hopefully there will be some good news. I also have my other 2 test on the day we get back for front office and lab. I hope that those are easy as well. They will be open book so I hope I do good.

Well Christmas with dad and nana will be on Monday. So I can't wait for that. Anyways I am going to go ... I have to go to work tomorrow at 4 and I think I am going to go shopping for a little while before then. So goodnight everyone and Happy Holidays.

Cerissa

Bad Habits

So lately Jayden has been waking up in the middle of the night screaming, so I usually just pick him up and put him in the bed with me ...... bad bad bad me, well last night he did that and I put him in the bed with me and he fell right back to sleep as did I .... well this morning at 7 he fell off the bed and bumped his head on the night stand .... I felt so bad it scared the crap out of me ... but thank god he has a hard head .. all it left was 2 little scratches and a bruise. Oh and by the way he is acting like his normal self ... so he is fine. It just shows that I need to stop doing that and let him cry it out and put himself back to sleep.

Onto another bad habit .... SMOKING ... gosh no matter how many times I try to quit ... I just can't stick with it ... I want to stop but something always happens and I find myself with one in my hand just smoking away. Especially at school ... all of my friends at school smoke .... and it's really hard at break time not to have a smoke with them. So my New Year's resolution is this ... STOP SMOKING ... so wish me luck!

Anyways hope everyone has a wonderful day!

Cerissa

Catching UP

So I haven't wrote in a week so thought that I would catch you lovely people up on what's being going on in my life! Well let's see I now work Mon and wed afternoon's at mi pueblo so I can make some extra money and start saving for my own place. I like it .. Megan babysits for me ... she does a good job! My mom and I are not getting along at all ... it maybe do to the fact that I never see her that much because she is gone when I wake up and I am gone by the time she gets home ... and then when I do get home from school she is usually asleep or awake and doesn't say much ... so I dunno what is up with her and I, but I know this might seem a little rude to people but I might add that I kind of like it when I don't see her that much ... it is so much nicer, like the weekends suck because I have to see her ... like today (sat) she was such a Meany ... she wouldn't stop being on my ass about stupid crap, but that's my mom for ya.
Anyways so Monday at school was good ... nothing much really happened. So nothing really to write about there.

Tuesday ... was a good day, Jayden had a doctor's appointment at 9:15 ... and we were running a little late so I called and talked to the receptionist and she said if you are more than 10 mins later for your appt. you are going to have to reschedule ... I made it right at 9:25 and due to there clock being a min ahead of mine ... I had to reschedule I was so mad. So I reschedule it for the 12Th at 9:15. UHH seriously some doctor's offices make me mad ... I'll tell you what happened on Friday ... OMG! Tuesday at school was good ... we now have 3 hours of lab ... which means I get to poke people for 3 hours FAN-TAS-TIC!

Wednesday ... went to work got off early because I had a WIC appt. at 2:15 ... went there took Jayden .. you would not believe how many people kept telling me how cute he was and how much he looked like me ... I just wanted to be like ya I know my son's the best HAHAHA but I didn't .... so WIC has started this new smart card thing which is kind of really cool .. but wal-mart I tell ya is so not up to date with this new technology ... I went the next day THURSDAY ... and had to go to 4 different registers just to get Jayden some formula ... I swear!
School went well ... nothing really exciting there.

Thursday ... umm let's see just school ... it was good ... after school Erik, Joe, Amanda, Victoria, and I played v-ball with a beach ball outside. It was fun and hilarious too because we were running our butts off so the ball wouldn't hit the ground. Very fun! Came home and totally just went to bed I was so tired.

Friday... so like i said before i had reschedule Jayden's doctor appt. for today ... well I get there early this time ... and wait for about a hour. When they finally call my name ... he says we're sorry we can't see Jayden today because your insurance only pays for 1 well-check a year ... I am so mad I could have went off on that dude ... so I ask him well what can I do so I can get him in because he has a stuffy nose and a rash ... they reschedule me for Saturday at 9:30. OMG I can't believe this crap!!! Went to work made some money was happy ... was suppose to hang out with my new friend Amanda but totally passed out because I was so tired.

Today ... got up took Jayden to the doctor .. he got seen finally ... got 2 presciptions one is a cream for his dry skin and the other is for his stuff nose. So took those to walgreens after we left ... they won't be ready until monday. Went to work at 3 ... had a good time ... have to work tomorrow at 3 also. So hopefully that'll be a good day too

well that's about it .... nothing too exciting going on ... anyways talk to ya'll later

Cerissa

So school went well tonight, we learned new stuff in lab today, a syringe draw ... it's pretty cool! Anyways Erik and I are officially just friends if even that! I don't know and I really don't care. School and baby are my first priorities right now!

I had a vocabulary test today and got a 87! It was cool, didn't expect to pass I suck at vocab.

Anyways I have a big test tommorrow and I am going to go study so good night!

Oh and CONGRATS Erik on your beautiful baby girl that was born on November 26, 2008! She is so CUTE!

peace love happiness
Cerissa

Just Live you Life...

Alright so right now my life is AWESOME! I don't think it could get any better.
Tonight I got my grades, I wish they were better but they're not bad ... 88 in A/P ... 88 in F/O and 89 in lab ... btw A/P is anatomy and physiology, and F/O is front office. So not bad but hopefully the grades will be better this mod ... actually they will be better.
So school is going good for the most part ... no more drama ... it's GREAT!

Life is going good to .. Erik and I for the most part are doing good. It seems like we are getting closer every day. He is such a good friend and hopefully that will grow into something even better then it already is.

Work is going good. Just wish that I could work more ... but I am not sending Jayden to a daycare, plus I can't afford that .. daycare is so outrageous... there prices anyways.

Next weekend is Stephanie's birthday, so my sister, Erik, Stephanie, Justin, some of Megan's friends, and I are going to hit up some clubs. Aunt Cindy is watchin tha baby. So glad that she is doing that for me especially since she is having surgery Monday, I hope all goes well with that.

Anyways so my life has been going good.... I know I have said that before but it just seems that I finally have everything back on track and I can't wait to see where else this amazing life is going to take me. I new I was suppose to be something and do something, but this is not what I pictured, I really seriously thought that I would never get the chance or oppurtunity to go to school, and become what I wanted to be. I really am thinking about farthering my carrer afterwards though. It would be really nice to be an RN. I think it would anyways. I really want to go into pediatrics though. That would be AWESOME. But you never know I might change my mine, but I am glad that I am getting the chance to do this because it will only make me a better person, and not only that a better mom. I know that I am a good mom, but this is for my son. This is going to help me provide the things that he needs, and hopefully to spoil him just a little bit. Plus I am so ready to get out on my own, get out of my mom's house and start living on my own. Believe me I know that it is going to be hard, being a single parent is a challenge but I am glad that it happened that way. Forget about the dad being around, my son is going to be a good person, and I know that I will help him throughout him becoming a good person. He will know everything he needs to know and that knowledge will come from me and that is an amazing thing. To know that I have created a new life is something truly amazing that I will never ever regret doing. Plus I know god put Jayden in my life for a reason, and I thank him everyday for that because only he knows where I would be if that never happened.

Anyways I am going to get off of here and go to bed. I have a busy day tommorrow ... work at 4, but I have to get up and take my sis to the bank, go pay the cell phone bill, then she's going to go tan, and then I am going to come home try to take a nap because I know I'll need one because I haven't been getting much sleep lately, then off to work I go .. make that money ... that I need so bad.

Good Night
Oh Happy Anniversary Chris & Dad .. Hope all is well and that ya'lls relationship keeps on growing stronger and stronger ... LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH!

-C-

So tonight was good, I went to work made some good money, then after work I went to Lisa's and hung out with her, then I came home, and called Erik. I'm still talking to him we've been talking for like 2 hours ... it's crazy, I've never liked anyone this much before. Anyways I have so much homework to do this weekend, but I've got some of it done, well I will write more later Erik is almost here .... anyways see ya later
Cerissa

School, school, school!

Today was the last day of the mod. Yeah .... here are my test scores: A/P 86, Front Office 95, and Injections/Lab 100! Woohoo GO ME! Anyways can't wait to get my progress report and see what my final grade is for the six weeks. I hope that it is good. I think that it will be. I LOVE LOVE LOVE school. I can't believe that I didn't do this along ass time ago, but I am glad that I am doing it now!

So this last weekend was my cousins, La Dayna, wedding, it was beautiful. She looked so pretty, and I was so happy that I got to be a part of it. I was one of her bridesmaids. I am so happy for her, she has started one happy little family. Her kids are adorable. It was the first time I ever got to see them so ya. They are beautiful. Anyways the wedding was great, the reception was great, overall I had a wonderful time, and like I said I am so glad that I got to be a part of it, I can't wait to see the pictures! Oh and I caught the boquet ... :)!

Anyways ... Thanksgiving is coming up and so is my best friends birthday, we are having Thanksgiving at our house this year. It'll be Jayden's first .. so I hope everything goes as planned. Not sure if Aunt Kim is going to come though, she's a little depressed about Brandon ( my cuz) leaving to go to boot camp the day before. Like everyone else says wouldn't you want to be around family at that time and give thanks that you live in a country full freedom, and that you actually have a son that is supporting that? I don't know I think that something is changing with her, she has been so weird these last couple of years. Then after we have Thanksgiving food that I am so totally going to pig out on, David and mom are going out of town to the deer lease, and I am going to go pick of Stephy on Friday, and she is going to watch Jayden for me while I go to work, and Saturday is her birthday, and I am going to give her the biggest party ever. Then I'll take her home Sunday, and hopefully I'll get to see Erik to that weekend, I am going to invite him to the party, and the guy that Stephy is dating is going to be there too, and some other friends and stuff. I think that we are going to have an awesome time! I sure do hope so!

Last weekend was also awesome because Erik got to come over and hang out with me ... it was awesome, he is such a nice guy, and so HOTT!!! :)

Well I am about to go to bed, or wait for my sissy to get home so I can talk to her about some crazy stuff that went down at school today .... anyways peace, love, you know the rest!!!
♥

History was made today!

Today was the day! We now have our first black president. It's history in the making. I never thought there would be one. I have to say I am proud of him. I am glad that he is president. I know that in the beginning I was like there will be know change, but hopefully their will be, and all I can do is wait and see.


Tonight as school was good. I got stuck in the ass 3 times. Once by Debra, and twice by Erik. My butt hurts so bad. Oh well we have to learn sooner or later. Anyways so school has been going good. Like I said I love it, but tonight it was just crazy there was just so much going on, people were talking, the teachers were confused and didn't know what to do, I don't what was up with them tonight, usually they are some what organized, but not tonight, hopefully it will be better tommorrow. So the end of mod is coming up, and we are starting on our reviews tommorrow, fun fun, I think that I am going to do good on the final. I hope so.

Alright a little bit about Erik and I. We like each other, he likes me and I like him, but we are waiting to get to know each other a little bit more than we do now. I mean I know him pretty much, I got him all figured out, he's so nice, he has a great personality, I know that he would be there for me when I need him, he has already been there for me before (I'll get into that in a min.), I know that he wouldn't hurt me, and he is just so caring. Sometimes though I am worried that I am not going to be the right person for him though. Like he is just to nice ya know. Like what if I can't be there for him, when he needs me? I don't know there are just some things that are going through my mind, do I even want to see where this will go anymore. Sometimes it's hard for me because I have been in some pretty bad relationships, and I don't want to get hurt again. I don't think that Erik would do that, but there is always that chance, and I don't know if I am willing to take that chance just yet. I don't know what to do anymore. I guess we'll just have to wait to see what will take place. If it's meant to be then it's meant to be, if not than oh well.

Alright so last night I didn't get home until 12:15, I guess that's what time it was, all I know was that it was late. Well the reason I didn't get home until then was because I stayed up at school talking to Erik about alot of stuff. Well my phone was dead so I didn't call and tell my mom where I was or that I was going to be home late. My bad. She totally went off on me, telling me that I am disrespectful towards her, and that I need to start looking for a place to go. So this is where Erik comes in, he calls me like right after the arguement that I got into with my mom, and he's asking me why I am crying I tell him and everything, and he's like why don't u come stay with me, it's hard to though because I don't know him that well, and plus I have Jayden so I have to feel like he will be taking care of. I mean I won't have a babysitter for him when I go to school and work, what am I going to do. So I am looking for places and when I move out I guess I'll figure out something. I don't know I am just so fustrated and tired of all the BS at home that goes on.

Well enough of me venting good night folks!

My perfect lil life ....

So this weekend was good .... I guess you can say that .... Friday was a good day until I get a freaking ticket for speeding ... that sucked, then work sucked because Allan was mad because I was drinking with some friends... after I was clocked out and not in uniform, but don't worry I still have my job, Antonio made things clear that that wasn't a rule especially when I was off. So I still have my job. THANKS TO ANTONIO!!!!!!
So Saturday I was off ... thanks Allan! haha and Erik came over and we did some homework together, I am really starting to figure him out, I really like him, and he seems to like me too .... I mean even Megan thinks so too, so will see what happens, I'll keep ya'll updated. It was nice to see him though outside of school.
Today I just sat around the house doing my homework, and playing with Jayden. He is getting so big and he is a brave one I tell ya, there's this box that is full of like building blocks that he likes to climb on well yesterday he decided that it'd be cool to climb on it and dive head first into the carpet, it was funny until he scared himself and started crying, mom says that's the only way he will learn, but I felt so bad for him, he is going to be a clumpsy one that's for sure, but defentily not scared of anything. He has had a double ear infection for the past 5 days so a little cranky, but still his same ol self. He's also teething too so that doesn't help the fact that his ears are killing him too, poor kiddo.
So school is going GREAT I am loving it, I have a final comming up in 2 weeks and my drug book that I have been working my ass off on is due then too. I am helping Erik out too that's another reason he came over on Saturday!
Well I am going to get off of here and go to bed. I still have some homework to do tommorrow and I think Erik is also coming over so I can help him with some of the other homework that he missed when he was absent one day. Anyways talk to you all later!

It's been a while ....

Today was a good day for me, got some of my drug book done, still working on it ya know, it's due next Thursday .... gosh I have like 17 more drugs to do, and then have to put them all in a book that I have to make! So fun for me busy weekend ahead!!!
School has been going good, I got 2 shots in my ass today ... yes I said shots and in my ass!!! Everyone got to see my butt, but it was all good! I was just a volunteer, everyone was like don't u get tired of volunteering??? I was like no I don't mind the pain, which it really didn't hurt that bad, but it's sore now.
I got a 98 and 80 on my test Monday. So I think my grades are pretty good, way better than the grades that I got in high school, that's for sure. Cliffanee and me seem to be getting along better these days, we actually talked today so that's a good start, we'll see what happens. Erik is turning out to be a phony ... I mean I don't know what's up with him these days. I'll keep y'all updated on that..... Halloween is this Friday.... so don't have a costume, and we are having a party on Thursday at school for Halloween, and I wanted to have a costume so I could dress up but I guess that I am not going to be able to do that. Oh well. Jayden is going to be a cow for Halloween it's so cute! I still can't believe that he is 8 months old now....he grows up way to fast.....if you ask me!
Well back to my drug book!

My Bad Day

So today started at 6:30am, Josh(sissy's boyfriend) left at 7:30 to go to Arizona, sissy is really sad. but I know she'll be OK. I miss my Joshy poo though! Umm, mom stayed home, and Jayden got his first haircut today at 2pm. He was such a good boy! Didn't cry he was actually yawning. haha that's how cool my kid is! He looks like a big boy now. I can't believe it he'll be 8 months old on Sunday.

So around 4:30 I start getting ready for school, I love school so I am pretty pumped ya know, considering the fact that yesterday this girl name Clifanee doesn't like me and tried to start some bs with me, but I am so over it, and hoping today would be a better day..... well was I wrong, everything started off fine, I was talking to everyone, went to go sit by Erik to show him the pics of Jayden that I took of his first haircut, and everything was going great. After first break was when my day just turned for the worst, we up at the board one by one doing problems, well I volunteered myself, wish I wouldn't have, I had spotted, I started my period, and I was up there in front of the whole class so everyone could see, even Erik, OMG I was so embarrassed, so I left the room and got a pair of pants from Ms. Holly, and went to the bathroom to change, ya know I am sitting there in the bathroom so not wanting to go back to class, but I am like hey it happens to everyone so what's the big deal you know, so I walk back into class just like nothing happen, and Debra, my bestie in class, starts telling me all this crap that people were talking when I left. I was so embarrassed and still a little pissed from the day before because the freaking hostility in that room was so tense, I just started crying, I was so frustrated and irritated with everything, I just wanted to leave right then and there. I was so devastated. Well then if anything couldn't have gotten worse they did, me being a dumb ass goes off on Erik, the one person that I total didn't want to be pissed at me, well he was pissed at me and didn't talk to me for the rest of the night until I went up to him in lab, and asked him if he would talk to me after class you know, well he did and everything is good now, thank god, I mean I really do like this guy!

So that's my story of the day, I also have a load of homework to do, so I am going to go to bed so I can get some rest and do all of it before I go to work tomorrow.

WooHoo

Well yesterday at school I had 2 test. I passed them both one with 100, and the other with a 94! School is going great I love it. Erik and I did not go out, I have stopped smoking, and umm I love my life!!!! I'm still talking to Erik though, it's just that we've been both really busy! Umm, what else I am getting tired of all the bs that Megan and Josh are talking. Apparently they both have a job, but ummm haven't seen them go to any of them???

My mom has been in the worst mood lately don't know why??? I am totally broke, and it sucks!

I decorated the house today with Halloween stuff. It was fun and it looks really good if you ask me.

I talked to my dad the other day, he seems pretty happy with his new job, he said he loved it, which is really good.

My job is getting old, but whatever.

Umm, I am tired all the time don't know why that is???

I have to do a drug book for school which is due Nov. 6

I have a bachorlette party this weekend, it's going to be so much fun!

I have a wedding to go to on the 8th.

Sometimes I am so confused.

I know how to take blood, how to tell what blood type you are, and how to give injections.

I know 50 medical abbrevations, and 10 medical terminology words without having to look them up anymore.

I think I am about to go to bed because I am so tired.

Oh and I want to see SAW 5

but I have to see SAW 4 before that.


GOODNIGHT!!!!

Haunted House

So this weekend, Josh, Megan, Manuel, and I went to the Cutting Edge off of 30 and Lancaster. OMG! I hate haunted houses but it was something to do so I was all for it. I had a blast though! They all were laughing at me though, because I screamed and jumped pretty much every time we turned the corner. So ya but I still had fun and glad that I got to go. There were like 6 or 7 rooms that we went through, there was even a part in the house that was called the pit, and was like SAW, we watched a tv before entering the pit and Jigsaw was giving us the rules, it was entertaining and fun!

I worked the rest of the weekend, that was fun I guess, I don't lately work has been so slow that it isn't that fun to me anymore, and I am beginning to like it less and less every day, but hopefully it will get better sooner or later. I HOPE SO!!!!

School has been going great, and I love it!!! This week we are learning how to do injections, and that's going to be interesting!!! I seem to be Erik's guiena pig for everything, last week he tried to do a TB shot on me, and he hurt me. So I told him he has to make up for it. So I get to get him back!!!! Last week we were studying the immune system, totally didn't know how complex our bodies are, and totally didn't know that boogers are mucous and dirt!!! HAHA!!! :) Just thought I would let ya'll in on that.

Also didn't know that 1 in 4 people with HIV don't know it, that's alot of FREAKIN PEOPLE!!!!!

So tonight at school I have 2 test, and homework that's due so I am going to go do that and then study, and plus I am hungry too.

Oh and this weekend is the bachorlette party, can't wait, and also it's going to be Jayden's first haircut, and he will be 8 months on Sunday! Can't believe it! He's growing up so fast.

I passed!

So last night I had to test at school one over word parts ... I made an 80, and abbrevations, I made a 88! I was so happy! Anyways I am totally loving school. It's way better than I thought it would be, the people in my class are awesome, and my teachers are too. They can be so funny at times! Anyways this is the start of my second week at school, and if you ask me it's going pretty well. I LOVE IT!!! I am so glad that I got the oppurtunity to do this, and better myself, and my life, so when Jayden grows up he knows that his mommy did do something to make her life better for him and her. I know he'll be proud.

Anyways my sister has officially moved back in, I am trying to get her a job with me, but don't know if that will work out because we have been so slow lately that we might not need to hire anyone for a while, but I am going to try to pull some strings, and we'll see what happens. I just really want her to get a job because I am so tired of hearing my mom complain about it.

I got alot of stuff done today, I was very productive I think, I went to wal-mart this morning and returned something, got a Barber jersey!!! GO COWBOYS!! Then went to Big Lots to get some scrubs they were $7.00, pretty good price if you ask me!!! We still haven't gotten our scrubs from school yet. Ms. Holly says that the place we order them from are stupid! HAHAHA I went to the bank after that, then went by David's Bridal but they weren't open yet. I stopped by whataburger and got me a BOB, it was yummy!, then headed home. So ya this morning I was very productive, I did forget to pick up Jayden's prescription though, but I will get that done tonight before I go to school.

Nothing else really exciting going on in my life, except that I might have a date sometime this weekend ... we'll see how that works out. His name is Erik and he goes to school with me, he's a really nice guy so I hope that it works out, well going to go get some chores done ...

I Love School!

So as ya'll know I started school last Thursday! I absoutly love it! I couldn't be any happier with my life right now.
I have a wonderful son, who is growing like a weed by the way, great parents, a good job, and 2 great sisters, and now I am going to school which is just the icing on the cake.
So right now in school we are studying front office, which is filing and the duties of the receptionist, and also studying medical termoniolgy, which is very confusing but I am starting to get the hang of it. The homework assignments are long but very easy, because all you have to do is go back in the chapter and find the answer. It's really not that bad, the only thing I dislike about school is the lab part, where we have to give and take blood, the taking isn't so bad, but the giving kind of gets old when u have to do it every day, but it gives the other students the practice they need. The teachers are awesome, and very funny and interact with the students very well. The class is a good size so we get alot of one on one time with the teacher or teachers. I have 2 teachers, Mrs. Sonya and Mrs. Holly. Which are both very helpful and hularious. Mrs. Holly is the master teacher, and Mrs. Sonya has only been there for 3 weeks so she helps us new students feel very welcome because she is going through the same thing that we are. I really love and enjoy it.

I miss being at home and putting my son to sleep though, and I miss seeing him do new stuff, mom said he was crawling and chasing lily around last night, and doing this crazy squeal that he does trying to get her attention, she said it was pretty funny. I am going to have to get a video camera so when I am at school, mom can record him doing new stuff. I mean I have pretty much seen the crawling ahd him grabbing things so he can stand up, so there can't be anything new just yet right? He better not decided to say momma while I am gone though, that would just kill me. He is def. a momma's boy though, it's so cute, but sometimes when I leave and he sees me leave he cries, and it just breaks my heart. Megan said he did that yesterday when he turned around and I wasn't there anymore. I was like aww that's so sad, but that just means he misses me.

Well anyways I am going to get off of here and go back to homework.

MY DAD!

Alright I know I said I was going to go to bed, but I have one last thing to say before I do.

I was reading my comments, and one was left by my dad, and reading it made me cry, not hysterically, but just a couple of tears because I know he's proud of me and that makes me feel good.

I guess you would understand why if you new the relationship my dad and I have. We've had a couple of bumps in the road if you know what I mean.
My dad has always been there for me know matter what happened in my life, but a couple of years ago that changed, I don't really know why that was, but I guess it was just because we stopped talking, it was about a year that we didn't talk, and I have to admit their were times when I didn't care, and their were times when I would think about it and wonder what the hell I did wrong, or why does he hate me? I know he didn't hate me, but sometimes your brain makes you believe something that's not true. That year I was going through alot of changes, I had gotten into some bad things and had gotten a really awful boyfriend that I was living with, looking back on it now kind of makes me see why he didn't talk to me.

Well last year he called me on my 20th birthday, I was shocked, happy, sad, and just plain emotional, not only because he called me, but at the time I was preggers! We've been talking since. I love my dad, and hopefully he knows that, that year was lost and could never been brought back, but I wonder sometimes what it would be like if I had that year to re-do again, would I get to see my dad doing all the funny little things he does, would I have gotten to sit down and talk to him about things that were going on in my life that I needed advice on? I don't know maybe, but we can't do that, so this is the time that I need to focus on because I want to. I want to be able to see the funny shit that he does, and be able to call him up and say hey you want to go out and have lunch or dinner because I really need your advice on somethings?
I also want him to know how proud I am of him, he has taken a big step by retiring from the Azle Police Department, and getting a new job at Highland Villiage Police Department, which I know that he is totally excited about, I also want him to know how much I truly missed him when we didn't talk, it SUCKED! I also want him to know that I am sorry that I was stubborn and stupid and that I didn't make the attempt to call him up and talk to him. I also want him to know that I look up to him, and I always have, he will always be my dad know matter what, and I look forward to our daughter-father relationship getting stronger!

I love you daddo!!!!
"c"

la dee da

So as I said once before I have started school, and I am so happy! I can't believe it. I never thought that I would be able to go back, and it wasn't in my plans, but it has happened and I couldn't be any happier.
Today I did my first homework assignment it was a motivation poster. I had so much fun doing it, it's been a while since I've had homework, but it was really fun! I shouldn't have tried to do it on the floor though with the little one crawling around, before I new it he had double sided tape in his hair! LOL :) it was pretty funny though! I think I did a good job and will hopefully get a good grade on it, for ya'll wondering what my motivation is well here it is: 1. My son, 2. My family, 3. To get a career , not just a job, 4. My family, and 5. MAKE MORE MONEY! So there you have it, that is what my motivation will be and what will keep me going.


Alright on to another subject, work. I absoutley love my job don't get me wrong, but some of the guest we have I swear they come in there just to complain, last night I worked in the bar, waiting the tables that we have in the bar area, and a couple came in at 9:45 (we close at 10), the lady ordered a magarita and her husband ordered a Tecate, well they then asked me what time we closed I told them and they said oh well I guess we better get to looking at the menu to see what we are going to eat so please give us a couple of minutes, which a couple of minutes to these people is like 5-10, so around 9:50 they order their food, a beef chimichanga and 3 tacos with rice and beans, the chimichaga takes a while to cook because we have to fry it, so anyways I go back out to their table around 9:55, (note this is 5 mins before we close) and tell them that I have to give them last call, they totally freak out on me, which now after talking to my boss about I understand, but last night I thought it was totally out of line the way that they took it, we always do last call 5 mins before we close so I thought hey it wouldn't be a problem with them right? I was totally wrong, they were taking it as if I wanted them to get out, like I was rushing them or something, that was totally not my intention at all, which come to figure out, they were just really pissed off that they hadn't gotten their food yet, and I was already giving them last call, which my boss explained it to me this way, how would you feel if someone gave you last call and you hadn't gotten your food yet, I told him that I would probably get mad, but I totally wouldn't have reacted the way they did, but they do have a right to get a little pissed off, not the piss off where you don't even want your food anymore and don't even finish your drink, just give me a tab and not leave you a tip pissed off, but that's what happened, so I guess I won't ever give last call anymore!!!
Oh and I might be trainning to become bartender, everyone says that I would probably make better tips then the guys that are bartender's up there, and I believe that one of them is probably going to be leaving pretty soon, so this is my oppurtunity to make better money if you ask me, so I'm going to talk to Antonio about it on Monday, and see what he says, I have metioned it to him before, but he just said wait to see what Chris ( the bartender that might be leaving) is going to do. So will see, wish me luck.

Well it's getting late so I'm gonna go to bed
Good Night!

School

Ok school is going to be awesome. Tonight was my first night and I already love it. I know that it is going to be all worth it once I graduate. I am so tired though. This weekend we have to do a motivation poster .... so I can't wait to get started on that. Today we got introduced to everyone and the teachers ms. holly and ms. mona they're really nice. I like them both alot. I also like the people in my class they are funny! Tonight we also went to lab and I got to poke people in there fingers to get there blood. It was fun but I have been doing that since I was little with my granny having diabetes so yah. The other people in the class were taking blood, I got mine taken 3 times so it was interesting. They all did a very good job, but I can't wait to start learning how to do it so I can poke them back!

Anyways I am really tired so I am going to go to bed because I am sure the little one will be up early in the morning he always is!

So today I start school, it's so exciting, but then again I'm a little nervous! I'm sure everything will be fine!

Anyways I got a new lap top it came in today and it is so AWESOME! I love my mom! Well that's about it, for now, I'm sure I'll get on later and tell you all about my wonderful time at school! So I'm going to get back to my chores while Jaydens sleeping!

Jayden

My baby boy has grown so much. He was 6lbs 11oz when he was born and now he is 18lbs 12oz. He's 7 months old and has got such a personality. He knows how to crawl, laugh, and babble. He is def. spoiled, he knows how to get my attention, and he's clingy, but I love it! He eats like a champ, and poops like it's going outta style. Poop to me is like seeing a bird in the sky, it's an everyday thing now.

I am truly blessed with this gift from God and I couldn't be any happier.

I start school tomorrow, I'll graduate in September. I am really excited and I know that this career will change my life for the better. I will be majoring in medical assisting, which I think will be very exciting, but there will be many nights of studying for sure.

Well I have nothing else to really talk about so goodbye for now.

Gettin' things off my chest

• This morning I was woke up by my mother. She doesn't wake you up nicely ... she was like hey ... she sitting there trying to talk to me ... I didn't hear a word she said ... and all i say is ya uh huh ... not knowin what the hell I am suppose to be doing .... or what the hell she is saying???

• All I know is that I have to take Megan home and run some errands .... so I did ... I love my sister to death but why in the hell does she have to live so far away???

• Jayden was fussy on the way home ... about 30 mins later he's passed out ... it always happens like this.

• Pack n Plays are really expensive ??? Why ???

• My kid has to have the best no matter what .. yes he is 7 months old and spoiled.

• He looked so cute this morning in his camo.

• Texas weather sucks ... it was 95 degrees today and tommorrow it's only suppose to be 83 ... gosh!!!!

• I talked to Antonio and Ajai today .... still confused over them, but I believe it will get better with either one of them. Hopefully Ajai!

• I start school on Thursday and I am so excited. My dad has a new job and he starts Saturday I'm excited for him! I know he is too!

• I'm off on Friday and thinking about going to see Stephanie in Denton, still not sure yet gas is so expensive and I don't want to drive all the way out there ... we will see. I kinda want to work Friday ... I only work 3 days .. (friday, saturday, and sunday)

Cowboys

So the Cowboys lost today so much for me telling you how bad they beat Washington. It was a close game though 26-24, but we still lost ... oh well we're still 3-1 and that's pretty good!

Today was a good day considering the fact that I didn't go to bed until 4 this morning and I got up at 7 to take care of the little one. He is always so happy in the morning it just makes my day. I love him so much! No matter how early he decides he is going to wake me up.

Work was so slow today ... I still made good money for a Sunday, but it was just so slow and boring.

Well I guess I am going to get going ... nothing really to talk about today ....

I'll be writing more tomorrow for sure!!!

Today!!

So today was an amazing day I guess, started at 6 this morning and I have been going since then. I had to go to a TABC class this morning at 7. It was the most boring and stupid thing I have had to sit through in my entire life. Ok it wasn't stupid but it was pretty boring if you ask me sitting there for 4 hours listening to a guy talk about how your suppose to serve alcohol and when your not suppose to serve it, if you ask me it's pretty much common sense. I mean we took a test at the end that I probably could have passed with out listening to him talk for 4 hours.

So I leave there at 11 and head home ... thank god that's over, but I am also a little ticked off that I didn't get to go to my orientation at school, but my advisor said that was cool and that he would go over with some stuff with me before I start school which is in 5 days!!! I can't wait, I don't think I have ever been this excited about school before, but I really can't wait to see what it's all about!!!

So I come home and I am suppose to go get Megan (sis) but mom is like I'll go get her later on, so I'm like cool I don't have to use my gas to go get her. (she lives in granbury) So I go get some Subway ... YUMMY!!! Bring it home and eat it ... watch a freakin weird movie with mom, and after the movie she says ... hey what time you have to go to work (it's 1pm) and I say 3, she's like why didn't you go pick up Megan you had plenty of time, I'm like ok I'll go get her now ... considering the fact that I have to get Jayden ready and put his carseat in the car ... then change his diaper get all his crap together and then get in the car. I didn't leave the house until 1:35 .. I have to be at work at 3 .... at this point I am really pissed, but thank god I have the most awesomest boss around and he is fine with me coming in at 4!

So I get home at like 3:40 ... and hurry my ass up and change and get to work .. my day at work couldn't have gone any better .. it was great .. I love my job ... and totally blessed with it!!!

So now I am at home chilling with my sister, posting this blog, and drinkin a beer ... yup I can do that now!!!

Well that's all for now folks come back tommorrow for my exciting story about the COWBOYS beatin tha shit out of the REDSKINS!!!

GO COWBOYS!!!

Jayden will be 3 months next TUES!

So lately Jayden has not being going #2 like he use to .. he is a breastfed baby, and he use to go every day at least 3 times a day if not more, then all the sudden it went to every other day, then to nothing this all started at the beginning of this month so it's almost been going on for a month .. wow .. anyways so I've called his doctor and he said to give him water in between feedings, if that doesn't work in 24hours then use prune juice 1oz of that and 2oz of water mixed together .. well we started that today .. and so far no poopy yet .. so if he doesn't have a bowel movement by tommorrow then i am going to call the doctor and make an appt. and also give him a suppository .. i know that it isn't good to do that but i know that he is in pain because he does try to poop, but it just won't come out. I know that some moms say this is ok that some babies don't go like a whole week, but I think that that is torture .. i look at it this way, wouldn't you be in some discomfort if you didn't go for a whole week? I know I would ... LOL.. so just imagine how it feels on a little babies stomach ... it must feel awful ... so anyways I know poop isn't the most interesting thing to talk about but I had to write it down .. i would have posted it on myspace but some ppl on there shouldn't know my stuff .. anyways i am going to go to bed now, it's 11:30 and way past my bed time! GOOD NIGHT!

Jayden (12 weeks) 5-20-08

Wow .... it's amazing how fast time goes by and how fast little ones grow up. I can't believe that Jayden will be 3 months old next Tuesday! It's CRAZY! He has changed so much these last couple of months from being a tiny little baby to a chubby little man. I can't believe that he is in my life, and I still haven't gotten over the fact that I'm a mommy now. When I first found out I was pregnant, I was so scared because I was 19, and hadn't really talked to my mom in a long time, so when I found out I cried, and told myself that I couldn't go through with this, but Abraham (Jayden's father) told me that he would help me out, and that he would be there for me. How stupid of me to believe him, he hasn't been there since I was at least 3 months pregnant. I would talk to him every once in a while, but lately I haven't talked to him at all. So I have decided to give up and let him do what he wants to do. I have come to realize that Jayden only needs me, and doesn't need some druggie father in his life. Not only was this pregnancy something I didn't want to do at first, but it was kinda a mircle because the doctors have always told me that I couldn't get pregnant .. so it was a total shock when I did find out.
I thank god every day for that, not only for letting me get pregnant, but for giving me Jayden at that time in my life because I was using drugs and drinking alot, and that all stopped when I found out I was pregnant and I have been clean for almost a year now. So Jayden has been a total blessing to me and I am so happy to have him in my life. I don't know where I would be if I didn't have him. He is my everything! I love him with all my heart. I didn't know that I could love someone this much, it's amazing.
Anyways Jayden is doing so good, he has def. got his own personality!!!! He's so silly sometimes. He is such a good baby too ... he is 2.5 months old and sleeps at least 5-6 hours a night!!! :) I know how truly blessed I am .. I hear it from all the other parents out there that I am friends with!
Well I think that I am done for now with my blogging I am sure that I will write more tommorrow!
Cerissa