IT'S BEEN A WHILE

So let's see ... a lot has happened since I last blogged.
I am living with my boyfriend Freddy in Irving
My son is now 2 years old and getting potty trained
I am going back to school to get my Associates Degree
I hardly ever see my sister anymore
I miss my mom
And I need a job
Life is hard and I know I will make it through it
Just have to keep my chin up!!!!
Cerissa

WOW it's been forever

As you all know it's been forever since I have posted something on my blog. I love facebook I have to admit that it has consumed most of my time while I am on the internet. I do miss blogging though because I have so much stuff to talk about .. plus it's a new year and alot of things have changed .. I have a new boyfriend named Freddy we've been together since my birthday ... he's amazing. I am currently unemployed but hoping that doesn't last very much longer. I moved in with my Nana, which has turned out to be a good thing. Jayden will be 2 next month on the 26th. I can't believe it. I am still thinking about going to school to become a RN! Other than that nothing much else has changed. I just miss blogging, blogging is a time for me to let out everything I have on my mind and it makes me feel so much better. Like today I went for a walk/ jog with my son in the stoller and it made me feel so good, plus I new Jayden enjoyed it too he was smiling the whole time he loves being outside.
And then ate dinner with my mom and stepdad hasn't happened in a while and it felt good to have some time with them and Jayden has been missing his GG and Papa so it was good for him to go over too!
Well anyways i am sure i will have more stuff to write about soon until then ttyl

catchin up!

So haven't blogged in a while thought I would do some catching up!
School is going great ... I am almost done .. CRAZY! Jayden is doing awesome ... he is 15 months now can't believe it. He had his doctor's appointment Friday and he is doing good, everything checked out OK!
My job is going good, not as busy as we use to be but I hope that it will get better, schools out now so we will see.

This weekend is going to be awesome. My bestfriend Stephanie is graduating Friday, and then Saturday we are going to the George Strait concert at the new Cowboys stadium in Arlington. I can't wait. I am so excited!!! I haven't seen Stephanie in forever. I am so proud of her.

Trent and I are talking again. That's a good thing, I kind of miss him.

Eric that's another story that I won't bore you with, I just have to let him decide on his own, and I have to move on. If it was meant to be then it was meant to be.

I am going to try to quit smoking again. I hope that this time is the last time I try. I figured the amount of money that I spend on cigarettes a month out, and it comes to $170, that's crazy!!! I can't believe that I do that each month, that's money that I could be saving to get me a new car, or a place of my own.

I have also trying to get my finances all in order. I know that I am bad with money. I mean really bad with money, I suck at budgeting, so I am trying to figure out how to do that all. I am getting there.

This past weekend was awesome, Rebecca my friend from work had a birthday party for her kids, it was so much fun, I had such a great time playing with all the kids at the party. Kids make me laugh so much!!!

Well I guess I will get off of here and go to bed it's pretty late!

Good night to all.

Love

-C-

my grades

So here are my grades for last mod:

Lab : 93
A&P : 98
Front Office : 97

So all As so I am proud .. I still can't believe that I am almost done with school! AWESOME!!!

I have decided that I am not going to be going to the river this weekend, I would rather stay home and make money working. I am broke because I had to pay something that I shouldn't have got in the first place.

I am going to miss my bestie when she goes to Ohio this summer! Y stephy????
Oh well I know that she will come back no matter what.

I want to know what is going to happen between Erik and I .. I keep waiting for him to ask me out .. he wants to, he just has baby momma drama ... LOL, she's crazy. So in the meantime I am still waiting, but at least he calls me and talks to me so I am happy and I do get to hang out with him for a little bit so I am happy with that too!

Well I am going to go get me some food and then going to bed, yes I know that is bad but I am starving!!

Goodnight to all

-C-

life has it's up and it's downs

I have started my final mod in school .. go me!!!
I will have my grades next week so I will let ya'll know!!!

Jayden will be 15 months old on the 26th .. crazy!! He's getting so big but I think he is already hitting the terrible twos ... for real he cries about everything that he doesn't get. He has been gettin alot of spankings .. he doesn't like them either. I know what yall are thinking spanking a kid at 15 months ... I am not talking with like a belt i am talking with like a hand on a diaper ... and like a pat. So don't go judging me ... like some people like to do!

Alright I am going to write about my sister because my sister is a very important person to me and I thought that I would just let yall in on what a wonderful person she is. My sister has her ups and her downs. Def. more downs then ups but that's ok, so Wednesday I went to go eat with some friends and catch up with them because I haven't seen them in a while. I get home bring her leftovers from chili's and she wants to bitch about it. It's like damn are you ever happy. She won't tell me whats wrong with her, and slames the door in my face. So I go back in her room and she throws her water bottle at me, scratches me and tells me to get out. I leave her alone and tell her that I just want her to get her shit together and grow up. She'll be 21 this year and I feel like she still gets away with everything. I am going to be 22 this year, and I feel like I have a crap load of responsibilities and I feel like I have done everything that I could to be a good mom, a good daughter, and most of all a good sister. I work my ass off, and my mom still feels like I don't do shit, or so she makes me feel that way. I don't know what it is, I just want my mom to stand up and tell my sister NO! How hard is that. She goes out every night. She doesn't have a job. She uses people, most of all me, her own sister. I love her, she's my sister. Sometimes I just feel like I don't even want to be around her, she makes me miserable, and sometimes I wish that I wasn't even related to her. I hope that she knows that I don't mean that, but she does make everyone feel like shit when it comes to her problems and the way that she talks to people. I hope that she does get her act together, or something is going to happen, and I am just going to have to stop talking to her and helping her. I can't see someone that I love be like this. I just don't know what to do anymore.


Ok onto another subject, something EXCITING!! Last night we went to the Rangers game. It was fun, and Jayden did so well. He really is such a good baby and just so happy when he wants to be!! Or when he gets to do what he wants!!! I had fun!!!

Well I think that is it. I am going to get off of her and do some homework and finish up some laundry and then go to bed. Goodnight to everyone!!!


C

My second Mother's Day ... and just blogging!

So tomorrow will be my 2nd Mother's Day. I am so happy that I am a mother, all the joy that it brings is AWESOME! This weekend has been good so far. I have just been working, which is ok with me because it's money and because I love my job, and on top of that my BOSS is freakin AWESOME!

So next week at school are finals ... FUN FUN then we start my last mod on Thursday! I am so excited I can't believe that it has gone by so fast. I am going to miss the people that we first started with though .. Kassie, Lisa, Joe, Maria, Jeff, and Diana. I can't believe that this is there last mod. Crazy!!!

Next Friday I get to go to the rangers game .. fun stuff, it's going to be Jayden's first outing at a sports event, I think he will have tons of fun ... can't wait!!!

Memorial day weekend is going to be fun to ... we are going to the river, I am excited but also bummed because I have to leave Jayden for 4 days. I'm going to miss him so much .. but he will be in safe hands with his Great Aunt Kim.

This last Thursday was great, went and hung out at Overtime (sports bar off of Beach and 820) with some friends from school, it was awesome had so much fun!! Pictures soon to follow this post!

Other than that nothing really much going on, Erik is still awesome and I can't believe that we are still friends, I hope to stay friends with him after school is out! He decided that it would be cool to call me at 2am this morning, crazy kid!

Well hope all the mother's out there have a wonderful Mother's Day

-C-

sick of being sick

So I went to the doctor yesterday ... come to find out I have bronchitis ... it stinks! So I got a shot in the ass ... and I am on 2 antibotics. I went to school last night for about an hour and then came home. Erik got in a wreck in the parking lot when he was leaving, he's ok but mentally I don't think he is. I told him if he needed to talk that I am here for him, he hasn't replied back. I just want him to know that I am.
So the end of the mod is coming up next week. I can't wait, I am almost done with school! YIPEE!

Nothing else really going on. I am going to go if I think of some other stuff to write then I will post another blog.

C