So alot of things have been going on lately .. I found out that my ex Trent still has feelings for me ... and I started off saying this because I still have feelings for him and uhh it's just so confusing, I don't know what to do, but on top of that .. I am so tired of everything!
My sister is getting on my nerves, my mom, and even Jayden. I wish that I could just do what I wanted without getting yelled at or getting critiqued for everything that I do, it is so annoying. I feel like I never do anything right, and if I do I would at least like something from it like a good job, or something even a kiss my ass would be great for now. I don't know just lately I feel so out of sync with everything, my mom especially, she doesn't talk to me that much, I don't know what's up with that, I thought we were bonding but apparetnly not what she has in mind.
My sister on the other hand, OMG, is she ever going to get a job? Probably not at the rate she is going, and the way my mom is acting. My mom just lets her do whatever the hell she wants and she thinks it's cool. I wish that I could not have a job and be lazy all damn day and not have to do shit, then wake up about 4 in the afternoon and go party, what a life that would be.
School is going great about the only thing I look forward too right now. It's getting closer to the end. I can't wait! I start my extern in early August, still haven't decided what kind of office I want to work at. Oh well I am sure I will have it figured out by then. I hope!!! :)
Other than that can't wait for this weekend BBQ in the good ol Azle at my Aunt's house, it's the last weekend my cuz is in town before he leaves again. I miss him! His girlfriend is badass .. Tera your the SHIT! LOL .. ANyways hopefully I can switch with someone on Saturday so I can have the night off. I am suppose to meet up with this guy I have been talking to named Bill, he is one of my friends at school brother. He's really sweet and nice, so hopefully he will be able to come in town from his job and get to see me. I'll let you know how it goes, we haven't seen each other in person yet. Just talking on the phone.
Umm nothing really else except my dad is totally right about Cerissa Desiree being an awesome name!!!
I'm out .. DueCeS
-c-
2 comments:
You know one of my favorite sayings is, "If life is a bowl of cherries, why do I always find myself in the pits?"
Just remember, life has ups and life has downs. The downtimes are what make the up times so awesome. You've got a lot on your plate and I know it's difficult at times; just hold your head high and keep going!
Your mom and your sister will one day appreciate what you have become! Your dad was right, Cerissa Desiree is an awesome name; but it's for an awesome young woman!
You make me proud! But more importantly, one day Jayden will be able to tell you how proud you've made him too! Just always remember that!
Your fa shaz's 2 cEnTs...
I am sure that during late 1969 all of the 70s and part of the 80s and even today. my mother, your grandmother said...WTF!!! How am I going to go on??? What did I do to deserve this??? Why me??? But no matter what, she kept on keeping on. Down times where many, good times where many too, I can remember both, but man when the bad times came, they came hard. I said all that to say this...hard times make good times better. You appreciate things more, the more you work for something, the more it means to you.
I had friends whose parents did for them all the time, things that they got (cars and stuff) they did not seem to care for. I got an old clunker of a pickup from papa...but you know what, rust will shine when you wax it. To me, it was the best trunk in the world and I took care it and appreciated it because I worked my ass off for it.
Your mom, your sister...whatever...you are the goal, Jayden is the goal...you are on your way and let nothing stand in the way...
It has paid off for Nana, look at me...look at you...and now look at Jayden. Just imagine what your life will become...all you have to do is look at Nana. She is your inspiration...work hard, stay strong and I love you beyond words.
Dad
PS (Cerissa Desiree) was my idea BTW (haha)
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