just blah

So alot of things have been going on lately .. I found out that my ex Trent still has feelings for me ... and I started off saying this because I still have feelings for him and uhh it's just so confusing, I don't know what to do, but on top of that .. I am so tired of everything!

My sister is getting on my nerves, my mom, and even Jayden. I wish that I could just do what I wanted without getting yelled at or getting critiqued for everything that I do, it is so annoying. I feel like I never do anything right, and if I do I would at least like something from it like a good job, or something even a kiss my ass would be great for now. I don't know just lately I feel so out of sync with everything, my mom especially, she doesn't talk to me that much, I don't know what's up with that, I thought we were bonding but apparetnly not what she has in mind.

My sister on the other hand, OMG, is she ever going to get a job? Probably not at the rate she is going, and the way my mom is acting. My mom just lets her do whatever the hell she wants and she thinks it's cool. I wish that I could not have a job and be lazy all damn day and not have to do shit, then wake up about 4 in the afternoon and go party, what a life that would be.

School is going great about the only thing I look forward too right now. It's getting closer to the end. I can't wait! I start my extern in early August, still haven't decided what kind of office I want to work at. Oh well I am sure I will have it figured out by then. I hope!!! :)

Other than that can't wait for this weekend BBQ in the good ol Azle at my Aunt's house, it's the last weekend my cuz is in town before he leaves again. I miss him! His girlfriend is badass .. Tera your the SHIT! LOL .. ANyways hopefully I can switch with someone on Saturday so I can have the night off. I am suppose to meet up with this guy I have been talking to named Bill, he is one of my friends at school brother. He's really sweet and nice, so hopefully he will be able to come in town from his job and get to see me. I'll let you know how it goes, we haven't seen each other in person yet. Just talking on the phone.

Umm nothing really else except my dad is totally right about Cerissa Desiree being an awesome name!!!

I'm out .. DueCeS
-c-

While I have time ...

Thought I would write somethings

First of all I would like to start off by saying last weekend was great ... besides me not feeling good .. Jayden had a wonderful Easter and got lots of eggs! We went and saw granny on Easter Sunday, the whole family .. when we walked in the Nursing Home everyone was staring at us because there was like a herd of us walking in a line, it was funny. Got to see my cousin Brandon again, it seems like I never get to see him, with him on base on the time it kind of stinks not being able to see him all the time, I miss him.

School is going good, had a test yesterday think I did pretty good, not sure because I didn't get to see my grade but I think I did good, so that makes me happy. Erik has come back to school, after we had a talk about what he needs to do, he wanted to drop out, but I told him he needs to come back and gave him some time to think about it, so I don't know what he thought about, but he was back yesterday, and I am happy to see him!!! He makes me happy for some reason, even though I know that it will never work out, I am happy to say that he's my friend!

Jayden is getting so big and has his own little personality, he is so funny sometimes, the other day my mom got off early from work, and was in the back yard planting some bushes, he was out there with her with his shovel and rake, I went outside and the next thing I know here he comes with mud all over him! I was glad that I didn't have to give him a bath, sorry mom! :)

I can't believe that school is almost done, I will start my externship probably the last week of July or the first week of Aug. I can't wait, I can't believe how fast it has gone by, I am going to miss everyone!

Next weekend, I am going to the club with my friends Amanda and Debra, I can't wait, I am so excited, I also can't wait for Memorial Day weekend, the fam is going to the river, it is going to be so much fun! I am so glad that I have an Aunt that is willing to take care of baby for me, I am going to miss him so much! :( But it's only 3 days so I am sure he'll be ok!

I also get to go to the Rangers game on May, 15th which will be Jayden's first baseball game! That will be interesting and exciting! I can't wait to see what he does! I hope that he won't be cranky, but he usually never is so I am sure he will be fine!

Well I think that's all I have for now, I've got to go jump in the shower and get ready I have some things to do before school, so hope everyone has a wonderful day!

-C-

New Mod @ school!!! :)

So we started the yellow mod last Thursday, it's over the heart!!! So much fun, this is going to be an awesome mod because I have my favorite teacher again, and because it's my second to last mod, after this we have the reproductive mod, then off to career services, then off to my job!!! Can't wait school has gone by so fast, it's crazy!

So last mod my grades weren't as good as I wanted them to be, but I knew that wouldn't be good because of the teacher, and plus last mod was our hardest mod of them all so here are my grades

keyboarding: 100
Front/Office: 98
Lab: 88
A&P: 88

So I got 2 As and 2 Bs so really can't complain there!!! :)

So Jayden is 13 months now and is so ready for his second Easter, this Easter he will actually get to go egg hunting! Can't wait to see that, tomorrow I am going to go the the mall so he can get his picture made with the Easter Bunny!

I have a membership now with 24 hour fitness, and I have lost 5lbs so far. I go pretty much everyday, at about 11:30 and sometimes my mom goes too at her lunch break so we can work out together and I actually think it's good bonding too ... which is good for our mother-daughter relationship! We haven't fought in a while and I think that's the reason why!

My sister has officially moved back in don't really know if that is a good thing or a bad thing but it's whatever. I just hope she finds a job so mom will be happy about that.

Granny was sent into the ER yesterday again because she wasn't breathing right, they found a mucus plug in her trachea ... due to the facility not suctioning the tube like they are suppose to, we will see what happens with that, I really hope she gets better because I really want to see her due well. I haven't been to see her in a while which I might go tomorrow because Megan says she wants to go see her too, and that hardly ever happens because she doesn't like nursing homes.

Well I am going to go do some homework then get to bed.

C