It's been a while ....

Today was a good day for me, got some of my drug book done, still working on it ya know, it's due next Thursday .... gosh I have like 17 more drugs to do, and then have to put them all in a book that I have to make! So fun for me busy weekend ahead!!!
School has been going good, I got 2 shots in my ass today ... yes I said shots and in my ass!!! Everyone got to see my butt, but it was all good! I was just a volunteer, everyone was like don't u get tired of volunteering??? I was like no I don't mind the pain, which it really didn't hurt that bad, but it's sore now.
I got a 98 and 80 on my test Monday. So I think my grades are pretty good, way better than the grades that I got in high school, that's for sure. Cliffanee and me seem to be getting along better these days, we actually talked today so that's a good start, we'll see what happens. Erik is turning out to be a phony ... I mean I don't know what's up with him these days. I'll keep y'all updated on that..... Halloween is this Friday.... so don't have a costume, and we are having a party on Thursday at school for Halloween, and I wanted to have a costume so I could dress up but I guess that I am not going to be able to do that. Oh well. Jayden is going to be a cow for Halloween it's so cute! I still can't believe that he is 8 months old now....he grows up way to fast.....if you ask me!
Well back to my drug book!

My Bad Day

So today started at 6:30am, Josh(sissy's boyfriend) left at 7:30 to go to Arizona, sissy is really sad. but I know she'll be OK. I miss my Joshy poo though! Umm, mom stayed home, and Jayden got his first haircut today at 2pm. He was such a good boy! Didn't cry he was actually yawning. haha that's how cool my kid is! He looks like a big boy now. I can't believe it he'll be 8 months old on Sunday.

So around 4:30 I start getting ready for school, I love school so I am pretty pumped ya know, considering the fact that yesterday this girl name Clifanee doesn't like me and tried to start some bs with me, but I am so over it, and hoping today would be a better day..... well was I wrong, everything started off fine, I was talking to everyone, went to go sit by Erik to show him the pics of Jayden that I took of his first haircut, and everything was going great. After first break was when my day just turned for the worst, we up at the board one by one doing problems, well I volunteered myself, wish I wouldn't have, I had spotted, I started my period, and I was up there in front of the whole class so everyone could see, even Erik, OMG I was so embarrassed, so I left the room and got a pair of pants from Ms. Holly, and went to the bathroom to change, ya know I am sitting there in the bathroom so not wanting to go back to class, but I am like hey it happens to everyone so what's the big deal you know, so I walk back into class just like nothing happen, and Debra, my bestie in class, starts telling me all this crap that people were talking when I left. I was so embarrassed and still a little pissed from the day before because the freaking hostility in that room was so tense, I just started crying, I was so frustrated and irritated with everything, I just wanted to leave right then and there. I was so devastated. Well then if anything couldn't have gotten worse they did, me being a dumb ass goes off on Erik, the one person that I total didn't want to be pissed at me, well he was pissed at me and didn't talk to me for the rest of the night until I went up to him in lab, and asked him if he would talk to me after class you know, well he did and everything is good now, thank god, I mean I really do like this guy!

So that's my story of the day, I also have a load of homework to do, so I am going to go to bed so I can get some rest and do all of it before I go to work tomorrow.

WooHoo

Well yesterday at school I had 2 test. I passed them both one with 100, and the other with a 94! School is going great I love it. Erik and I did not go out, I have stopped smoking, and umm I love my life!!!! I'm still talking to Erik though, it's just that we've been both really busy! Umm, what else I am getting tired of all the bs that Megan and Josh are talking. Apparently they both have a job, but ummm haven't seen them go to any of them???

My mom has been in the worst mood lately don't know why??? I am totally broke, and it sucks!

I decorated the house today with Halloween stuff. It was fun and it looks really good if you ask me.

I talked to my dad the other day, he seems pretty happy with his new job, he said he loved it, which is really good.

My job is getting old, but whatever.

Umm, I am tired all the time don't know why that is???

I have to do a drug book for school which is due Nov. 6

I have a bachorlette party this weekend, it's going to be so much fun!

I have a wedding to go to on the 8th.

Sometimes I am so confused.

I know how to take blood, how to tell what blood type you are, and how to give injections.

I know 50 medical abbrevations, and 10 medical terminology words without having to look them up anymore.

I think I am about to go to bed because I am so tired.

Oh and I want to see SAW 5

but I have to see SAW 4 before that.


GOODNIGHT!!!!

Haunted House

So this weekend, Josh, Megan, Manuel, and I went to the Cutting Edge off of 30 and Lancaster. OMG! I hate haunted houses but it was something to do so I was all for it. I had a blast though! They all were laughing at me though, because I screamed and jumped pretty much every time we turned the corner. So ya but I still had fun and glad that I got to go. There were like 6 or 7 rooms that we went through, there was even a part in the house that was called the pit, and was like SAW, we watched a tv before entering the pit and Jigsaw was giving us the rules, it was entertaining and fun!

I worked the rest of the weekend, that was fun I guess, I don't lately work has been so slow that it isn't that fun to me anymore, and I am beginning to like it less and less every day, but hopefully it will get better sooner or later. I HOPE SO!!!!

School has been going great, and I love it!!! This week we are learning how to do injections, and that's going to be interesting!!! I seem to be Erik's guiena pig for everything, last week he tried to do a TB shot on me, and he hurt me. So I told him he has to make up for it. So I get to get him back!!!! Last week we were studying the immune system, totally didn't know how complex our bodies are, and totally didn't know that boogers are mucous and dirt!!! HAHA!!! :) Just thought I would let ya'll in on that.

Also didn't know that 1 in 4 people with HIV don't know it, that's alot of FREAKIN PEOPLE!!!!!

So tonight at school I have 2 test, and homework that's due so I am going to go do that and then study, and plus I am hungry too.

Oh and this weekend is the bachorlette party, can't wait, and also it's going to be Jayden's first haircut, and he will be 8 months on Sunday! Can't believe it! He's growing up so fast.

I passed!

So last night I had to test at school one over word parts ... I made an 80, and abbrevations, I made a 88! I was so happy! Anyways I am totally loving school. It's way better than I thought it would be, the people in my class are awesome, and my teachers are too. They can be so funny at times! Anyways this is the start of my second week at school, and if you ask me it's going pretty well. I LOVE IT!!! I am so glad that I got the oppurtunity to do this, and better myself, and my life, so when Jayden grows up he knows that his mommy did do something to make her life better for him and her. I know he'll be proud.

Anyways my sister has officially moved back in, I am trying to get her a job with me, but don't know if that will work out because we have been so slow lately that we might not need to hire anyone for a while, but I am going to try to pull some strings, and we'll see what happens. I just really want her to get a job because I am so tired of hearing my mom complain about it.

I got alot of stuff done today, I was very productive I think, I went to wal-mart this morning and returned something, got a Barber jersey!!! GO COWBOYS!! Then went to Big Lots to get some scrubs they were $7.00, pretty good price if you ask me!!! We still haven't gotten our scrubs from school yet. Ms. Holly says that the place we order them from are stupid! HAHAHA I went to the bank after that, then went by David's Bridal but they weren't open yet. I stopped by whataburger and got me a BOB, it was yummy!, then headed home. So ya this morning I was very productive, I did forget to pick up Jayden's prescription though, but I will get that done tonight before I go to school.

Nothing else really exciting going on in my life, except that I might have a date sometime this weekend ... we'll see how that works out. His name is Erik and he goes to school with me, he's a really nice guy so I hope that it works out, well going to go get some chores done ...

I Love School!

So as ya'll know I started school last Thursday! I absoutly love it! I couldn't be any happier with my life right now.
I have a wonderful son, who is growing like a weed by the way, great parents, a good job, and 2 great sisters, and now I am going to school which is just the icing on the cake.
So right now in school we are studying front office, which is filing and the duties of the receptionist, and also studying medical termoniolgy, which is very confusing but I am starting to get the hang of it. The homework assignments are long but very easy, because all you have to do is go back in the chapter and find the answer. It's really not that bad, the only thing I dislike about school is the lab part, where we have to give and take blood, the taking isn't so bad, but the giving kind of gets old when u have to do it every day, but it gives the other students the practice they need. The teachers are awesome, and very funny and interact with the students very well. The class is a good size so we get alot of one on one time with the teacher or teachers. I have 2 teachers, Mrs. Sonya and Mrs. Holly. Which are both very helpful and hularious. Mrs. Holly is the master teacher, and Mrs. Sonya has only been there for 3 weeks so she helps us new students feel very welcome because she is going through the same thing that we are. I really love and enjoy it.

I miss being at home and putting my son to sleep though, and I miss seeing him do new stuff, mom said he was crawling and chasing lily around last night, and doing this crazy squeal that he does trying to get her attention, she said it was pretty funny. I am going to have to get a video camera so when I am at school, mom can record him doing new stuff. I mean I have pretty much seen the crawling ahd him grabbing things so he can stand up, so there can't be anything new just yet right? He better not decided to say momma while I am gone though, that would just kill me. He is def. a momma's boy though, it's so cute, but sometimes when I leave and he sees me leave he cries, and it just breaks my heart. Megan said he did that yesterday when he turned around and I wasn't there anymore. I was like aww that's so sad, but that just means he misses me.

Well anyways I am going to get off of here and go back to homework.

MY DAD!

Alright I know I said I was going to go to bed, but I have one last thing to say before I do.

I was reading my comments, and one was left by my dad, and reading it made me cry, not hysterically, but just a couple of tears because I know he's proud of me and that makes me feel good.

I guess you would understand why if you new the relationship my dad and I have. We've had a couple of bumps in the road if you know what I mean.
My dad has always been there for me know matter what happened in my life, but a couple of years ago that changed, I don't really know why that was, but I guess it was just because we stopped talking, it was about a year that we didn't talk, and I have to admit their were times when I didn't care, and their were times when I would think about it and wonder what the hell I did wrong, or why does he hate me? I know he didn't hate me, but sometimes your brain makes you believe something that's not true. That year I was going through alot of changes, I had gotten into some bad things and had gotten a really awful boyfriend that I was living with, looking back on it now kind of makes me see why he didn't talk to me.

Well last year he called me on my 20th birthday, I was shocked, happy, sad, and just plain emotional, not only because he called me, but at the time I was preggers! We've been talking since. I love my dad, and hopefully he knows that, that year was lost and could never been brought back, but I wonder sometimes what it would be like if I had that year to re-do again, would I get to see my dad doing all the funny little things he does, would I have gotten to sit down and talk to him about things that were going on in my life that I needed advice on? I don't know maybe, but we can't do that, so this is the time that I need to focus on because I want to. I want to be able to see the funny shit that he does, and be able to call him up and say hey you want to go out and have lunch or dinner because I really need your advice on somethings?
I also want him to know how proud I am of him, he has taken a big step by retiring from the Azle Police Department, and getting a new job at Highland Villiage Police Department, which I know that he is totally excited about, I also want him to know how much I truly missed him when we didn't talk, it SUCKED! I also want him to know that I am sorry that I was stubborn and stupid and that I didn't make the attempt to call him up and talk to him. I also want him to know that I look up to him, and I always have, he will always be my dad know matter what, and I look forward to our daughter-father relationship getting stronger!

I love you daddo!!!!
"c"

la dee da

So as I said once before I have started school, and I am so happy! I can't believe it. I never thought that I would be able to go back, and it wasn't in my plans, but it has happened and I couldn't be any happier.
Today I did my first homework assignment it was a motivation poster. I had so much fun doing it, it's been a while since I've had homework, but it was really fun! I shouldn't have tried to do it on the floor though with the little one crawling around, before I new it he had double sided tape in his hair! LOL :) it was pretty funny though! I think I did a good job and will hopefully get a good grade on it, for ya'll wondering what my motivation is well here it is: 1. My son, 2. My family, 3. To get a career , not just a job, 4. My family, and 5. MAKE MORE MONEY! So there you have it, that is what my motivation will be and what will keep me going.


Alright on to another subject, work. I absoutley love my job don't get me wrong, but some of the guest we have I swear they come in there just to complain, last night I worked in the bar, waiting the tables that we have in the bar area, and a couple came in at 9:45 (we close at 10), the lady ordered a magarita and her husband ordered a Tecate, well they then asked me what time we closed I told them and they said oh well I guess we better get to looking at the menu to see what we are going to eat so please give us a couple of minutes, which a couple of minutes to these people is like 5-10, so around 9:50 they order their food, a beef chimichanga and 3 tacos with rice and beans, the chimichaga takes a while to cook because we have to fry it, so anyways I go back out to their table around 9:55, (note this is 5 mins before we close) and tell them that I have to give them last call, they totally freak out on me, which now after talking to my boss about I understand, but last night I thought it was totally out of line the way that they took it, we always do last call 5 mins before we close so I thought hey it wouldn't be a problem with them right? I was totally wrong, they were taking it as if I wanted them to get out, like I was rushing them or something, that was totally not my intention at all, which come to figure out, they were just really pissed off that they hadn't gotten their food yet, and I was already giving them last call, which my boss explained it to me this way, how would you feel if someone gave you last call and you hadn't gotten your food yet, I told him that I would probably get mad, but I totally wouldn't have reacted the way they did, but they do have a right to get a little pissed off, not the piss off where you don't even want your food anymore and don't even finish your drink, just give me a tab and not leave you a tip pissed off, but that's what happened, so I guess I won't ever give last call anymore!!!
Oh and I might be trainning to become bartender, everyone says that I would probably make better tips then the guys that are bartender's up there, and I believe that one of them is probably going to be leaving pretty soon, so this is my oppurtunity to make better money if you ask me, so I'm going to talk to Antonio about it on Monday, and see what he says, I have metioned it to him before, but he just said wait to see what Chris ( the bartender that might be leaving) is going to do. So will see, wish me luck.

Well it's getting late so I'm gonna go to bed
Good Night!

School

Ok school is going to be awesome. Tonight was my first night and I already love it. I know that it is going to be all worth it once I graduate. I am so tired though. This weekend we have to do a motivation poster .... so I can't wait to get started on that. Today we got introduced to everyone and the teachers ms. holly and ms. mona they're really nice. I like them both alot. I also like the people in my class they are funny! Tonight we also went to lab and I got to poke people in there fingers to get there blood. It was fun but I have been doing that since I was little with my granny having diabetes so yah. The other people in the class were taking blood, I got mine taken 3 times so it was interesting. They all did a very good job, but I can't wait to start learning how to do it so I can poke them back!

Anyways I am really tired so I am going to go to bed because I am sure the little one will be up early in the morning he always is!

So today I start school, it's so exciting, but then again I'm a little nervous! I'm sure everything will be fine!

Anyways I got a new lap top it came in today and it is so AWESOME! I love my mom! Well that's about it, for now, I'm sure I'll get on later and tell you all about my wonderful time at school! So I'm going to get back to my chores while Jaydens sleeping!

Jayden

My baby boy has grown so much. He was 6lbs 11oz when he was born and now he is 18lbs 12oz. He's 7 months old and has got such a personality. He knows how to crawl, laugh, and babble. He is def. spoiled, he knows how to get my attention, and he's clingy, but I love it! He eats like a champ, and poops like it's going outta style. Poop to me is like seeing a bird in the sky, it's an everyday thing now.

I am truly blessed with this gift from God and I couldn't be any happier.

I start school tomorrow, I'll graduate in September. I am really excited and I know that this career will change my life for the better. I will be majoring in medical assisting, which I think will be very exciting, but there will be many nights of studying for sure.

Well I have nothing else to really talk about so goodbye for now.